I sit here nervous but confident. It’s strange to feel both emotions at the same time but it’s the only way I can explain my current mood. Let’s start with the basics. I’m 27 years old and 415 pounds. Those stats are staggering. Somehow I manage to hold a full time job and semi-exist. The first 26 years of my life dealing with obesity wasn’t too bad but my body has been changing this year. During the last month to month and a half my back is constantly hurting. I can’t remember a time that I had a day without pain. I’m having trouble doing basic things like walk to my car.
Why don’t you just change your diet and exersize more?
That’s the first thing people ask or think when they find out you’re doing something as extreme as SURGERY to lose weight. They automatically assume that this is a “quick fix” or “the easy way out”. I’m here to tell you I did not come to this decision easily and it was not because this was “easy”. No matter how you slice it, loosing 270+ pounds is not an easy task. Trust me, I have tried everything. I’ve been a Weight Watchers member probably 20 or more times since I was 14. I didn’t suddenly decide yesterday that I was going to do something about my weight. I can usually loose around 30-40 pounds before my body decides to stop and I loose my motivation.
Truth be told, I’m an addict. My drug of choice isn’t a drug or alochol, my drug of choice is food. I stuff my feelings through my stomach. When I’m happy I eat. When I’m sad I eat. When I’m anxious I eat. When I wake up the first thought I have is what I’m going to eat and that continues until I go to bed. Food controls me. Unfortunately it’s not as simple as “just stop eating” because HELLO you need to eat to survive.
My orientation for WLS is Friday, March 13th 2015. I believe strongly that this will be the beginning of the best decision I will ever make. Weight Loss Surgery is going to save my life.